DeCare and PAPA

Assalamualaikum.

Tadi ada Decare. Seperti biasa, bila nak mula sesuatu pertandingan, ofcos la rasa nervous, scary and a whole lot of butterflies in my tummy. Tapi aku ketepikan sebab tak nak termuntah. Yes, when I'm too scared I can throw up. Heh, that's just me. Balik kepada cerita tadi, my geng and I wait for other people to be at the foyer. Tapi tak cukup orang, so cikgu suruh Wahida & Jannah to just pick someone that wears the yellow t-shirt, or whatever. Wahida and Jannah pon pergi la kat kelas diaorg.. Tup tup Harris lelaki "bertuah" tu. Cak! Memang pelik and kesian la tiba2 diaorg pilih mamat tu. Sebab dia pergi Decare pon bukan buat apa-apa pon. Kalau aku mesti dh fikir "Why am I here? Like seriously, I should be studying in class right now. Macam lengu je." Tapi maybe, with a capital m, dia tak fikir macam yang aku fikir kot. Kot la. Mana tau kan. Hehe

Then, we saw Nadi Putra bus. We get on the bus and suddenly, it stopped at "tempat perhentian bas". Aku dah cuak. Apahal tiba-tiba stop kat sini. Rupanya, kena buat quiz and treasure hunt. There are 25 questions altogether. I only get to answer 20 questions. Pening la jugak soalan dia. Huh! After the quiz, we had treasure hunt. Treasure hunt la sangat, padahal tiup belon then bagi cawan pyramid jatuh. That's the other people. Jannah and me have to write 25 names. I was like, shit! Can't remember anyone. Well, except for my geng and the Chinese-muslim girl and the Indian girl. What did I do? I told Jannah to ask their names. Each of them. Not "told", more like an order. Haha. I got 22 names and I left the 3 blank. Ingat otak Jannah tu robot ke? -.- LOL

Habis all that stuff, we have to walk. Read again: WALK. I'm being too gedik here. It's just a short-distance from the "tempat perhentian bas". Hello! It was hot~! I can't stand hot weather. (fact, not gedik)
Lepas dah naik tangga semua bagai, duduk kat kerusi yang disediakan. Sebelum tu, kitaorang beli air and buah dulu. Lepas dah makan, ada police officer panggil sekolah aku and sekolah rendah. Sekolah mana entah. He called my name Izuan Najwa. My name is IZYAN NAJWA. Dah la pakai spek, memang kena buat 1 spek lagi, pakai kat batang hidung ko tu. I was no.5. Jihah's 4. Motorsikal, woohoo! Aku start pertandingan tu, dah kena saman 3 kali berturut-turut. Macam @#$^&(. Hahaha. I felt so down and dissapointed. Lepas dpt saman, aku takleh nak fikir straight. Dapat saman lagi. Total saman=8. Ada budak tu nama Raziq/Razif, he got 16 saman. Bapak ar!

Habis je pertandingan, terus aku rasa macam nak menangis. Tapi aku tahan. Beli air lagi, dahaga. Then it's time to go back to school. I was like, damn! Baru pukul 12. Buku memang tak bawak ar. The teacher said we can go to the library, so off we go. After about 30 minutes in there, we have to go back to our class. Dengan ketidakrelanya, kita pon pergilah. Belajar lah jugak. Tapi aku ni nakal sikit. Time BM aku sempat lagi keluar telefon mak aku soh ambik. Masa nak masuk bilik media kat library, dah 2.30. Haha
But the important thing is I still have homework. Present to the class about chapter 17, titled PAPA. I seriously hate that book! How stupid of the husband to marry another woman when his wife is in coma. UGH! If my future husband is like that, my mom said that she'll punch that future husband. Hihi

Dah la. Cerita tamat di sini. Malas nak tengok karangan panjang sangat.

Matluthfi

Assalamualaikum.

Di atas adalah gambar profile FB saya. Hehehe

Actually, I want to talk about "Beautiful or pretty girls". Not me. But matluthfi. His channel is matluthfi90. He's really funny and sometimes cute. I especially love two of his videos, title "soalan ramalan pasca SPM" and "drama-drama sebelum kahwin." I was LOLing every minute of it. Without further ado, let's watch his video: "bukan semua cantik subjektif"

[He mentioned Yoona dlm tu. And, khas untuk orang yang tak cantik macam saya.]

Tolong tengok sampai habis. ^^
P/S: Emma marah aku dok sebelah budak tu. Hew hew Finally, I get to smile at her :)

Change

Assalamualaikum.

Sweetkan pakai macam ni? Lelaki tengok pon manis~ ;)

This is what my mom said to me last night: "Umi harap sangat kakngah pakai macam ni."
Bila aku dengar je ayat tu, aku rasa nak menangis. Of course I want to wear like a muslimah and be like one. I feel that I have too many sin and I'm scared that I will be in Hell much longer than in Paradise. I wanna change from this kind of me to another new muslimah me. :')  Maybe my mouth will still be like a laser but that cannot be helped. All I'm asking for is moral support. Hmm...


I wanna talk about what Muslims should wear. *I'm trying to be that perfect muslimah*

Fashion
Ada 2 syarat utama bagi menutup aurat dengan baik.
a) Pakaian tersebut tidak menampakkan bentuk badan si pemakai.
b) Pakaian tersebut tidak menampakkan ciri-ciri tubuh si pemakai seperti warna kulitnya. This means that we can't wear shirts or dresses or jeans that look like our skin. Shit, I have one. -.-

Pemakaian Islam
a)    menjadikan fesyen pakaian hari ini yang ketat sebagai pakaian yang tidak menurut syarak. Ada wanita Muslimah memakai pakaian ketat dan kecil yang disebut baby size. Entah betul, entak tidak. Apa nama saiznya sekalipun, apabila pakaian tersebut ketat, ia belum lagi menutup aurat dengan baik.

b) menjadikan pakaian yang nipis sehingga menampakkan warna kulit, pakaian dalam dan sebagainya tidak selari dengan syarak. Ramai memakai baju kurung tetapi kainnya, masya’Allah amat nipis.


To girls or teenagers or pangkat makcik-makcik sekalian, kalau nak pakai seluar sukan silakan asalkan longgar. Like mine, hee~ Kalau nak pakai seluar jean, OK tapi jangan beli yang ketat sangat. baju pon sebenarnya main peranan yang besar. Kalau baju ko nampak buah dada, tolong labuhkan tudung. Geli kot tengok.

Sekian. Take all the good things from my blog and forget about all the stupid and mean things I wrote. I know I'm not perfect. Hell, nobody is. But I try to be the person my mom wants me to be. Insya-Allah.


P/S My blog is suitable for Mozilla Firefox.

These Days People Are Like...

Salam.
I wanna talk about people these days. As you can see, the people around you might be loud-mouth, bitching about other people when actually, it's their own flaw their talking about, people that are two-faced, people that congratulates you but being like a 3 year old behind you. It's bad enough that all of these characteristics are in one person. It makes you wanna kill them, huh?

If you allow people to be the judge of your life, they will certainly start to judge you. If you go out of your way to show people your kind heart, there will always be a few who won't trust your motives, and a few who won't understand your purpose for helping others. If you work hard some will say you are selfish, and if you succeed they will say that you used some sort of method to cheat. [Manusia selalu tak puas hati] .

We will all experience some form of haters in our lives. There are always going to be people who don't believe in you, and who hope that you don't succeed in what you do. But for all of the negative people in the world, there are also those that are positive, and that continue to be positive. Pledge to be one of those people. Never let your experiences and your quality of life now, stop you from committing to continual growth.

Sometimes crying is one of the best ways to let out some of the pain that we feel on the inside. Each tear we shed is symbolic of letting a little bit of the pain we have on the inside go! Don't ever think of crying as a sign of weakness, because in all actuality it is a sign of strength, and it is a sign that we are letting go of the pain we once held inside of us. Letting go of who we are and the feelings we had is sometimes best initiated by us allowing ourselves to give out a good cry.


We should never be ashamed of our tears. Just as we should laugh, we should cry, they both are therapeutic, and help us to make sense of a world that at times gets overwhelming. Tears are great for getting over the past, and as long as crying isn't the only thing you do to let go, your life will be helped to be made whole by letting your tears go.



There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up, it's realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap. 


That's all for today. Thanks for taking or wasting your time reading~! 

P/S  Orang Melayu memang akan cakap "bajet speaking" kalau kita boleh speaking ke? God, some people are so narrow minded. Classmate Kakak aku pon cakap dia bajet speaking. Apa, korang semua ni jealous ke? Please.  
 

My 'Silence'

Assalamualaikum.

I have no mood whatsoever right now. All because of people who forced me to do something that I clearly know when to do it. Last year, I have 'failed'. Not literally, no. Just not to the expectations of that people. I think to myself, 'Why me? Why do I have to go through this?' Then I realized that all of this happened because this is what Allah has given me one of His ujian. O' Allah, please give me more kesabaran. 

I wanted to write about something and something... But that would be like 'skeletons in your closet.' Look it up! I know this may be a bit tad and boring to you, but I don't want to over-expose what is meant to be a secret. [I can keep secrets, haha]

Aku pun tak suka di-pressure. Please, let me do what I need and want. I know how to manage my time. Think that I don't regret what happened to me last year? Think again, I do. I really do.  It's just I am not in the right mind to think. No, I'm not crazy and I haven't lost my mind, yet. Haha

Berubah dan diubah. Sounds the same but it's completely different.

Berubah is kita ubah dengan diri sendiri. Ke arah kebaikan or sebaliknya. You choose.
Diubah is orang lain paksa kita untuk ubah. This doesn't work out, people! Give everyone a chance to change on his or her own will. You can't force people to chang. CAN'T.

From no mood, to ujian Allah, secrets, pressure, and now change. Wow, so many topics in just one post. Yeah, that's just me. ^^

Live life. To do something is to let it out [my new catch phrase]. Everyone, no matter what the situation is think positive thoughts! :) You'll get used to people like this bullshit types. Harden your heart. Don't care what other people said, just do what makes you happy~!

That is what I tell myself everyday. It may seem weird but say it in front of the mirror, will ya?