5.17.2018

A Letter to the Heartbroken

Him. 

I didn’t say a name, but he still pops up on your mind didn’t he? 


It’s going to be hard for you to trust again, to love, and to stay.
Maybe you just got out of a breakup, maybe you have for years. It still hurts.

You’re going to be cautious of the words that spills out of people’s mouth.
You’re going to promise yourself not to love again. Or be in a relationship again.
You’re going to get out of the relationship before the other person dumps you.
(Maybe it’s repeating and you’re getting really tired of all this).

Maybe this is your first heartbreak. Maybe it isn’t. People think you’ve gotten used to it, but you can’t. No matter what or who you’re with; it still hurts.

But you’re going to lie to other people; fake smiles and laughs got you through the day.
The only time you let down your happy mask is when you’re alone.
Crying, sobbing while listening to breakup songs. When you know that no one cares.

It’s a lie if he didn’t crossed your mind today or every other day.
You kept yourself busy but by the end of the day, he still creeps in your mind.
They say time heals. I say that’s all bullshit. If you’re not doing anything for yourself, how can time heal anything? Time doesn’t do shit. It’s you that have to bounce back.

Make him regret dumping you.
Don’t blame yourself for what has happened. That’ll only make the parasites creep to your mind; slowing down your healing process.
I hope you stay true to yourself, when no one is.
I hope you stay by your own side, when no one is.

Some people take months, years to heal. I know that no one can completely heal. There’s still some wounds left in us, deep inside. Don’t touch the wound.

Some day, whenever that is, I hope that you can love again. But promise me to never trust someone 100%. No one deserves your 100%. Put some trust to yourself. And most importantly, stay.
If someone deserves your trust and love, then stay.

Unless there’s a reason not to.

-Izyan Najwa.




(all words are made by my own damn self. Please give me credit such as link my blog whenever you want to post this).

2.11.2018

Why Does "Love" Hurts?

This post is not about God's love. It's about human love.


Love.

A simple word, yet complicated at the same time to experience it, or for those that are still experiencing it.

If love is nice, why does it hurt?
    In order for us to take something so beautiful yet so delicate, we have to sacrifice something: our        heart.
   
We experienced love as well as heartbreak. It doesn't matter if you're experiencing a breakup or you're fighting with your loved ones. It doesn't necessarily need to be your girlfriend or boyfriend, it can be with your family and friends too. Your heart still breaks and that's what hurts.

You would do anything to make things right again. Some has a fairy tale ending, others are still in the middle of the book desperate to find their own beautiful ending. But honey, not all endings need to be beautiful.
Why? Well, because things happen for a reason. If you don't feel like you're gonna have a happy ending, then you just have to search for it on your own.

As for me, I'm still trying to figure out how to handle love. A bit overwhelming and exciting at the same time but sad as well.

All I know, is that love is like a puzzle, You have to know which piece fits with which.
                                                                                                                              -Izyan Najwa-